I was setting in cold comforting darkness as I watched the soft warm candle light dance on the walls only for me, my glass of Crimson Cabernet wine was full to the rim…I couldn't seem to rap my head around what I was trying to do...what emotion am I trying to capture?...what's the damn point of it all?...I let the sweet wine slowly drained into my restless body and mind. Hmm, that’s smooth I thought…my body grew still, as my mind grew calm and then suddenly it was like somebody had opened a flood gate to the universe in my mind and I was drowning in a deep dark wine sea of answers to all my thoughts and questions, I didn't struggle as I let myself drift off somewhere far away...I soon found my self sinking down uncontrollably into a spiral of self realization, deeper and deeper until I would soon hit the bottom of the subconscious sea where my painful epiphany of undeniable truth awaits. There was no escaping it, betrayed by my own mind, my fate was sealed...but then there was a bright flash from the camera, it came crashing down on my mind like a tidal wave, shattering my hopes and dashing away my dreams...so close to my own demise yet so far away, DAMN YOU ROY! I wasn't ready…

Alas, the sea of subconscious truth is a harsh mistress...

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Done on toned paper, with back and white NuPastel chalk

Thank you everyone one for all your great comments!

Thanks bro for gettin the perfect shot of me, even if I did make ya do it 100 times!